I have occasionally been told that I talk too much and I can be moderately opinionated. Well make no mistake about it, I do have a lot to say and the way I view things is important....at least to me it is. In hind sight I have realized there are plenty of times where the listening was much more vital than the talking, this realization is a tool in getting over oneself...or so I've heard ;) Yesterday standing in my kitchen I was shown my flaws as if the Most High had stretched them out on my very own counters for me to see. He showed me examples of when I had been difficult, stubborn, and prideful. All of these examples in a matter of seconds while I stood at my kitchen counter eating cherries out of the pasta drainer (short story there...I washed them off in the drainer and hadn't quite made my way back to the fridge to put them up..story over) and He showed it to me plain as day the side of me that makes me difficult to live, love, and interact with. Unfortunately I wasn't all to happy with the instances of knuckle headedness that I was seeing, and made a conscious decision to try and be less stubborn, difficult and prideful because it would make me a better person by being a better servant to Him. I planned to start asap but had a momentary relapse because I was a wee likkle bit affronted...did He show EVERYBODY else there faults in such a grandiose way or just me? Surely I'm not the ONLY one guilty of being an occasional pain in the back side! Why single me out of all the millions of people...oh wait, yeah. My house, my kitchen, my life (light bulb moment) riiiiiiight..it's about me. Okay, sorry big guy, that was me being difficult. Now on to this solution type thingamajiggy...ideas? Oh wait, it's on kingdom timing, not my timing right? You order my steps then I follow...maybe more of these self reflection moments are needed, I hadn't noticed my impatient side before either.
I just keep wishing He'd hurry up and fix me.
